Yanaguana volume 1, issue 1 fall/winter 2025-2026 a literary journal from San Antonio, Texas
Poetry by:
Cyra S. Dumitru
Jane Marie Grovijahn
Christina Hernandez
Sarah Johnson
Variya Kelly
Peter Matteson
Susan O’Connell
Mariya Ortiz
Darren J. Poidevin
Karen O. Poidevin
Monica Snow
Poetic Medicine
A therapeutic and holistic approach to reading and writing poetry, Poetic Medicine practice harnesses poetry’s unique ability to circumvent the rational, prose-oriented brain, allowing people to write from the heart. Poetry is one of humanity’s oldest art forms, and belongs to everyone.
Poetic medicine is a practice, like yoga, meditation, or other forms of self care and self exploration. It is a tool to help us process our emotions, learn more about who we are, and grow as individuals.
Poetic medicine is a two-part process: the first is the writing of the poem; the second is the sharing of the poem. Sharing our poetry can feel scary or vulnerable, but it allows us to experience the healing power of “being seen,” and gives us the opportunity to practice holding space for others without judgment or criticism.
Poetic medicine is not about writing a “good” poem—because what does that even mean, really? This is not to say that beauty and “artistic merit” don’t emerge during the process—they quite often do. But the goal is self-expression and healing, not making others “ooh” and “ahh” over your work.
For this issue we invite you to read Susan O’Connell, who offers four poems in response to prompts from Poetic Medicine sessions. In our next section, Cyra S. Dumitru presents a sequence of poems from writers in the Soul’s Journey Poetry Circle. These poets are: Jane Marie Grovijahn, Christina Hernandez, Sarah Johnson, Variya Kelly, Peter Matteson, Mariya Ortiz, Darren J. Poidevin, Karen O. Poidevin, and Monica Snow.
Susan O’Connell
Poetry takes her stand
Dismissive literal voices, devoid of inclusion and heart,
draw me into the shade away from poetry.
Yet even in the shadows my imagination lingers,
longing to express life’s lyrical flow.
Poetry swings her legs as she sits on a red brick wall
gazing at glistening stars gliding across a charcoal sky.
My poems respond, painting papyrus with indigo dye,
orange spice, and scents of cinnamon.
Constellations of light and color emerge.
Poetry invites me to ink shame onto paper where it belongs,
the muddled colors curling away from a feeding source,
Mercifully freed
Poetry takes her broad horsehair brush,
dips it in yellow and pulls the pigment
across my face to take her stand
as one of my original voices.
Poetry lets a silent
ground lie fallow,
leaves a bird’s nest
untouched.
My heart recognizes
herself in the
spaces left
between.
I wrote ‘Poetry takes her stand” in response to a Poetic Medicine Circle training by John Fox. The prompt was: “Poetry / speaks and listens:” —lines from “Between What I See and What I Say” by Octavio Paz.
Even a tree grows in the shade (after Stephen Levine)
I survived like a tree growing in the shade
I said nothing when I meant no
I said frozen when I meant terrorized
I said feeling ok when I meant numb
I said yes please, I meant please god just this once offer kindness
I said thank you, I meant I dodged a bullet
I said no one can get me, I meant that’s what I felt even without a trigger
I say it’s in the past, I mean it is my companion
I say will you listen? I mean I want you to understand
I say this is complex, I mean I recognize generational pain
I say I forgive; I mean I feel compassion
I say I love, I mean miracles happen, I can love
“Even a tree grows in the shade” was my response to a Poetic Medicine Circle titled “Poetic Medicine and Social Justice” offered by Lisha Garcia and E.D. Watson.
A Fall Moon Rises
“Mother, the moon is dancing in the courtyard of the dead” — Federico Garcia Lorca
A Fall Moon rises
just after the equinox
9th moon of the year
when black crows harvest green walnuts
from trees in the ravine
A Fall Moon rises
her yellow face floats
in purple clouds of twilight
as night creatures sing songs
to skies of magic and mystery
A Fall Moon rises
pulls me outside
like gravity
as lunar light streams through
Sycamore’s dark silhouette.
A Fall Moon rises
I stand lone witness to her beauty-
such silence and dignity.
This Fall Moon rises,
I think of how when I am gone
Moon will still rise bright and true
her light touching into that place
under the Sycamore trees where my daughter
has placed my ashes,
which still glow in response to
A Fall Moon rising.
“A Fall Moon Rises” was written in response to a Poetic Medicine Circle on aging.
Aging invites deep reflection and a reconciliation of our understanding of life and death. This is not always an easy process in a culture that often doesn’t support this exploration well. Yet, there is something powerful being asked of us in the process; to enter life more fully—recognizing the preciousness of our embodied life, and how it will one day go on without us.
Here I was writing in response to the beautiful line: by Lorca from the poem, “Dance of the Santiago Moon.”
Kindling for the flame in our heart
Sometimes I hear his gray claws
click-click-clicking on glass door
as he tries to break through to freedom.
I relent as he knows I will, opening the door.
He glides to lemon tree beside brick wall
where a black cat’s ashes are buried,
hallowed ground.
Curls up in a puddle of molten gold,
last patch of sunlight shining through
a green canopy ablaze with light.
I sat there with my mother long ago,
her artist hands sketching round lemons
dangling plump like ornaments from the tree.
Our quietness and her images
slowly etched onto paper
soft ground for yesterday’s pain.
How seldom we notice grace
unfolding in the moment, yet
it continues to flow towards us.
What finally inspires us to turn
towards the numinous woven within life,
kindling for the flame in our heart?
Like the Phoebe birds, perched
in a row on wire above me, turn
their plump chests towards setting sun,
Feathered bodies radiant with light
absorbing and reflecting celestial gifts,
transformed, simply, by their Presence.
The prompt for this poem, “Kindling for the flame in our heart,” was “There Is a Secret One Inside of Us …” by Kabir. This quote from Kabir’s poem was offered in a poetic medicine training session with John Fox. I came back to it long after that session and found that it spurred a memory about how “The Secret One Inside of me” awakens when I am immersed in nature. My mystic heart and body respond to this quiet and simple contemplative process. Recognizing this and writing poetry offered me insight and healing.
Journey From Silent Suffering to Articulated Healing: a sequence of poems
Cyra Sweet Dumitru, PPM
For the past ten years, the Ecumenical Center, a counseling center located in the South Texas Medical Center, has sponsored a free Poetry Writing Circle on third Saturdays open to anyone 18 years of age or older. No experience with writing poetry is necessary. It has been my privilege as poet and certified practitioner of poetic medicine to facilitate this sacred circle.
Called the Soul’s Journey Poetry Circle, the purpose of the Circle is to provide a hospitable, creative space where individuals can explore and express spiritual struggles such as bereavement, divorce, traumatic experience, political marginalization, anxiety, depression, and chronic health challenges. Such exploration involves inviting heart and soul, our inner haven, to surface and speak during private writing time. By so doing, healing insight can emerge and give voice to poems. The truth expressed in the poem then illuminates a forward, more hopeful path for the poet.
We begin with poems that offer stimulating images and inspiring prompts. Time to write follows. When we regather in the Circle, participants can share their spontaneous writing knowing that they and their poems will be affirmed and respected. Sometimes there are tears, often there is laughter and feelings of release, gratitude, wonder and awe. This is not a workshop space, rather a space to nurture a process of deep inward listening which then leads to poetry, as individual souls speak.
During this decade, powerful and courageous insight has emerged about what inner transformation looks and feels like: its sacred, changing and empowering nature. While this walk with hurtfulness is not painless, it can generate tremendous healing insight that creates—from within—an honest, resilient path into a future that the individual poet defines as meaningful. It can also generate joy!
On March 10, 2025, a program of poetry, piano music, and art song called Rooted in Ruth (in honor of the late musician, scholar, and poet Ruth C. Friedberg) was presented at the Ecumenical Center. The program centered upon original poems written by members of the Soul’s Journey Poetry Circle. The poems were chosen and sequenced to reveal universal phases of healing as individuals journey through profound loss or hurtfulness to empowered, energized awareness.
The poems were performed by three poet-readers: Eric Cruz, Violeta Garza, and myself, along with art songs sung by three trained singers: Karla Clemens, Malcolm Nelson, and Caden Taliha, accompanied by collaborative pianist Cheryl Cellon Lindquist.
For more information, contact Cyra Dumitru at: cyradumitru@earthlink.net
Cyra S. Dumitru
Ode to Transformation
“Rest in the knowledge that you are held in loving kindness like a lotus rising pure from muddy waters.” Quan Yin, Buddhist goddess of compassion
Finally, the last stone wall collapses.
All hiding places forsake their secrets,
free now to become wings and dust.
Time to rest in being-held
and receive a new way of living within the well.
So, let us enter stillness—
become trusting and liquid as cats outstretched
in sun puddles on a January day—
the sky now everywhere visible
through stark branches of trees.
Oh, flowing river of struggle and sorrow—
find your way through limestone
and wash through us gently
clearing, cleansing
until we are so brimming, rinsed and ripe
that seeds harboring dreams
gain root, then ready stem
and rise, rise, rise through rippling darkness
toward distant light
surfacing, surfacing
into wild bloom.
Round One: Looking for Direction Between Darkness & Light
Monica Snow
Unpacking
The weight of what I carry is too heavy.
For a long time, I wander without direction—
Each step is a print in the sand
soon blown away by the wind.
No retracing my steps.
The weight of what I carry is too heavy.
I ease myself to the hot sand and
unpack my bag one by one
of burdens, anger, fear,
and false beliefs about myself.
The wind whistles across cactus thorns—
let it blow away my burdens,
let it leave me with hope.
Christina Hernandez
My Wise Tree
On a day when life is too heavy,
I sit before a favorite tree
who knows my history and
has listened many times before.
My tree acknowledges my presence by rustling
her leaves in concert with the wind.
She allows me to feel all my feelings,
sees no need to fix me and my thinking.
She doesn’t give me a list of things I need to do to feel differently.
She doesn’t say that I don’t have enough faith or gratitude.
My tree is not threatened by tears. She knows tears
are a gift from creation, part of the natural healing process.
My tree knows that my current state of gloom will pass
as it has before, but she feels no need to rush me to that state.
What a different world it might be
if people were more like listening trees.
Varya Kelly
My Inner Voice (an excerpt)
The dark forest sustains my inner voice.
There she dwells in yet unnamed hues of green.
In quiet moments under the trees
I can hear her rustle the leaves.
During the day she sticks in my throat
as a whisper, as she has since childhood.
Sometimes now, with slow untwining,
my voice shyly creeps out into daylight.
Sometimes now, with slow untwining,
my voice shyly creeps out into daylight.
Round Two: Grief & Trust: Oh Garden of All I Am Not But Could Still Become
Mariya Ortiz
Learning to Rise (an excerpt)
I am learning
to call my scars beautiful.
I am phoenix rising,
shaking off ashes,
and reveling in my knowing
that the space between
surviving and living
is immeasurable.
I call my scars beautiful.
Christina Hernandez
Garden
Oh garden of all I am not but could still become—
For so long I thought I had nothing to offer.
The inner tyrant dragged me down
into a spiral of shame and isolation,
incessantly screaming
that I don’t deserve this journey.
Then, a gentle voice I’ve not heard
clearly in years re-emerged
from the depths of my soul!
This voice feels no need to shout.
It reminds me that my life matters,
It reminds me that I belong here.
I am opening, allowing the gentle voice
to guide me beyond isolation and shame.
There is a compass of beginning inside me
There is a compass of beginning inside me.
There is a compass of beginning inside me.
Peter Matteson
Loving Soul
A soft, summer breeze
flows between the branches and leaves
giving new life to the air we breathe,
filling my heart
with the warm, glowing colors
of an early morning sky.
Take my hand, gentle wave of light—
show me the way, even during darkness of night.
With my soul in my hands
let the light in . . .
let the light shine through.
With my soul in my hands
let the light in . . .
let the light shine through.
Round Three: Musings on Mud Season: Rootedness & Resilience
Darren J. Poidevin
Am I Ready?
Is it time?
Have I taken in enough?
Am I ready?
Have I struggled enough as I waded, neck deep,
through the dark and resistant muck?
Have I gathered enough strength and courage
to throw my arms open…
To wrap around the whole of myself?
To go deep within,
protected by a carefully constructed cocoon?
How much time will I need to spend in the “nurturing” darkness?
I do have hopes of the day
that I will break through and be free,
able to enter back into existence,
not the same being,
but Someone with more beauty,
understanding, and forgiveness.
Sarah Johnson
Musings on Mud Season
There is a garden here
and I am taking root in it.
Tulip, Crocus, and Daffodil—
they were in the ground,
before the cold.
I am the Tulip
buried under earth and ice,
sprouting through snow,
splashing color on the winter world.
I am the Crocus,
heralding salvation
that is the coming spring.
I'm exalted anew each year.
I am the Daffodil,
soaking up every ray of light.
It is safe to bloom.
There is a garden here and
my roots grow so deep.
Karen O. Poidevin
Awake the Dawn
Soft wings of darkness,
shield me from the shattering,
bind the wounds that
yearn to heal and fade away.
But no, the bud begs blooming.
Glide gently across the floor,
I will become the dance.
For so long, I did not know this music.
Jane Marie Grovijahn
Haiku
Held by distant sky
the great blue heron sings
into the language of light.
Cyra S. Dumitru
With thanks to Jane Kenyon & her poem “Let Evening Come”
Let Healing Come
Let the long streaks of dawn
rethread the sorrowful loom—
let soft fire weave a new cloth.
Let the moon gather the scattered shards
and shine with all that is broken. Let the river
clear a flowing way. Let healing come.
Let the bobcat make a den among the boulders.
Let the wind land with a green direction.
Let the tall grass bend, let the bucket
catch and brim. Let healing come.
To the juniper thick with berries,
to the petals pressing through bark—
go forth. Another world is breathing.
Something wondrous is taking hold,
so let healing come.